Category Archives: Cancer

I’m Still Here, Honestly

“I’m Still Here.” Elaine Stritch first sang it on Broadway in Stephen Sondheim’s musical, “Company,” and Shirley Maclaine sung it in the movie, “Postcards from the Edge.” It’s a fitting song to describe me and this blog, because, I am … Continue reading

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Taking Off My Cape

This week I received a wake-up call. I am not Superman. This realization has come after more than a year of pretending that I was a caped crusader, able to do anything without exhaustion or need. I took care of … Continue reading

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Happily Hibernating, but Waiting for Spring

There are stories about people going crazy because of cabin fever. Mom and I have been snowed in for a few weeks now. OK, mom has. I live in fear of her falling because even though she’s stronger, she’s still … Continue reading

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Requiem

My cousin died this week. Ironically, she died on the anniversary of my mom’s double mastectomy. So on the day that mom and I were celebrating her life, my cousin was losing hers. Obviously, this is a sad occasion, but … Continue reading

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Happy Anniversary Mom, OK So I’m Two Days Late With This…

But I have my reasons for being late. For some reason it just felt important to spend the last two days being quiet with mom. Last year, at this time, mom and I were going through two of the toughest … Continue reading

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Gliding Along

It’s freezing. Right now, as I’m writing this its twenty degrees below zero. It is also almost the one-year anniversary of my mom’s double mastectomy. It’s weird because looking back now, I feel like I barely recognize how we got … Continue reading

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When the Caregiver Needs Caregiving

So I’m sick, but it’s no big deal. I have swollen glands and I’m fatigued, but this happens to me from time-to-time. My immune system hasn’t been the same since I got mononucleosis years ago. Epstein Barr virus is responsible … Continue reading

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It Could Have Been So Much Worse

I’m pretending to be Sophia Petrillo from “The Golden Girls,” for a second. Picture it; it’s New Year’s Eve 2010. I go outside to knock some icicles off the gutters (something I’ve done hundreds, no thousands of times without a … Continue reading

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So Here We Are

Rose Meditative by Salvadore Dali It’s almost a year later and what a year it has been. Last December, mom and I were preparing for her double mastectomy. She had received her diagnosis in November and we were doing our … Continue reading

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The Week that Was and Hopefully Will Be Again, Except for that Last Bit Where I Screamed…

Well this hasn’t been a very eventful week, and for that, I am truly thankful. OK so, the glass-screened door in the living room got frozen shut and wouldn’t close and all the cold air was coming in from the … Continue reading

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